I'm My Own Narrative

I don’t need you. You have let me dangle out on this cliff for too long and I am done. I thought that there was something wrong with me all along, but you’re the one who's fucked up. You will be sorry you ever let me go, and when you come running back to me, I’ll just say I told you so. I thought you were the one I need, but the one I really need is myself. I’d rather know who I am and not have you, then be with you and lose my identity. So thank you. Thank you for making me realize that I am my own person. I don’t need anyone to define me; I don’t want to be someone else’s piece of work. So you know what? I’m done plagiarizing baby, I’m a fucking original. So go find another heart to break, while I sit here, content with the solitude. Have a good life, without me.

GK

Why Not Me?

Why you? Why did I have to fall for you? You make me more mad, confused, and depressed than anyone else I have ever met! Yet through it all, I love you. There I said it. I fucking love you baby. Some don’t find this feeling for years, and I have to be the ignorant fool, who falls in love at the age of 16. Shit. You are so beautiful, sweet, and perfect. Why can’t you just take a leap of faith and trust that it will all be okay? I would never hurt you; I would never let anyone hurt you. You just have to give me a chance to do that! Why not? Why can’t you love again? You are the girl I want to curl up and watch movies with. You are the girl I want to call for no reason and just talk. You are the girl I want to be with when I need to get some shit off my chest. You are the fucking girl that I want to hold while she cries her eyes out for one reason or another! Why can’t I be that guy? You want a fairytale ending. But baby, there’s no princess without a prince charming, so why not me? Why not me?

GK

The Pain of Perfection

You’re so perfect, pretty, precious.

I don’t know what to say, do, or feel when I see you.

I hurt whenever I see your face because I know I will never have you.

And yet my ignorant hopefulness over takes me, as if I have a chance.

I don’t know why you had to come into my life and threw a sense of confusion into the air.

The pain of perfection engulfs my body and I drown into oblivion.

GK

Jealousy

Jealousy is a mysterious woman. She is my love, and she is my enemy.

She makes me lust, she makes me yell, she makes me lie, she makes me not want to live anymore.

She makes me want to scream out to the dark and dreaded night,

Make it stop so I can love again!

But then again love is what got me to this place of unsure agony.

It rains and I think,

The rain drops flip and fall down upon my face,

Lingering on my cheek like a tear.

I cannot help my pain, and so I say goodnight.

GK

As Time Goes By

As time goes by, I see you grow and flourish as a beautiful being who will always love me.

As time goes by, I see you smile and frown, laugh and cry, love and lose.

As time goes by, I love you more and never want to let you go.

As time goes by, I see the pain that you are too proud to show.

As time goes by, I need you more, and see you less.

As time goes by you live apart from my world, as if a fictional character in my life’s narrative.

As time goes by, I miss you, I need you, and love you.

As time goes by, you disappear into the oblivion of time, and all I have is the memories.

As time goes by, as time goes by, as time goes by.

GK

Time for Love

Time makes love shorter,

And love makes time longer.

The long and painful wait for love to arrive is the real pain of compassion,

Not love itself.

As love catches up with you, it clings to you,

And bit by bit sucks all the time out of life.

If love were time and time were love,

Then life would seem endless.

GK

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Baby, beautiful, perfect, precious. Every word that describes you feels incomplete without you with me. I don’t know why you left and I don’t know why you can’t love again. I know you just want someone to love you the way you deserve to be loved. Well I do love you, so be brave babe, be brave and love me back. When I jump, I want to fly. When I fall, I want to float, and when I’m with you I feel like I can. I just need you here.

GK

Ode to the Word Fuck

When a please be quiet doesn’t suffice,

A shut the fuck up can be real nice.

When can we please make love is not quite right,

You can say fuck me hard but please don’t bite.

No word can do it better, no word satisfies,

The way fuck does in every way, shape, and size.

Fuck you, fuck her, fuck this ugly shirt,

Fuck work, fuck school, it is a brilliant tool,

To express your emotions and just be free,

To use the word fuck is easy you’ll see.

Can I fuck you here or there?

Can I fuck you anywhere?

Dr. Seuss was a master yet he had one fatal flaw,

He wouldn’t say fuck cus’ it was against the law,

To teach little children these “inappropriate” words,

Yet he could teach them about Zinn-a-zoo birds.

Those aren’t even real and so may I say,

Fuck is just better in every single way.

Fuck day, fuck hay, fuck the whole month of May,

Fuck A, fuck K, and let’s just say,

That we’d all like to fuck Jessica Albay.

Yeah I said her name wrong but that’s okay,

Cuz’ I just say fuck that and it all goes away!

So next time your parents go and turn up their nose,

Just give a Fuck You and slam the door closed.

GK

The Garden of Life

I love you baby, and I know you don’t love as much as I love you

And that’s okay cuz at least you love a little

And a little is okay cuz at least it’s something right?

Fuck not, it isn’t! I put myself out there for you.

I want to hold you while you cry,

I want to be with you when the sun hits the earth,

I want to care for you, until my feeble hands can’t hold you any longer.

But I can’t, cuz you won’t let me.

You’re my beauty, you’re my flower, you’re my red rose,

And I’m just the stem, used to support you but nothing else.

And when someone comes along, they just cut me off, throw me to the ground, and admire your beauty.

I hurt people. I prick them with my thorns because of my jealousy,

And you don’t even acknowledge me, you just watch them bleed

While I just sit in the dirt, waiting for you to creep back to me.

You are my everything, and I am your anything,

I become what you want me to be, instead of blooming as my own flower,

So we can coexist peacefully.

Each and together, a beautiful part of the Garden of Life

GK